Right now I need to be cleaning out my closet to make some room for these space bags but instead I am in front of this idiot box. I mainly just want to state I will be having my own room hopefully by the end of the summer.  My mom has decided to take the dining table and place it in the kitchen then take Tae’s bed minus the bookcase headboard and put it where the table was. Yay! No seriously though Tae is too old to be sharing a room with mama and since my bed has a huge ass motor on it (for up and down of head & legs and for massage) plus it’s an extra long twin it has to stay where it is since it’s just us two doing the moving of shit. 

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Photos that I said I took last week.. Click thumbnails to view better

At the park:




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I want to run away. 
Far from it all.
Away from the thoughts.
Away from the needs.
Just go someplace.
Some place I cannot be found.
Some place that depression never reaches.
Some place I am free.

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There hasn’t been anything going on really worthwhile to update about.  Last week Thursday Kris & I took the kids to the park for a picnic. I have pictures of that day but haven’t felt like uploading them.  Friday night I went to Tiki Terrace for appetizers and drinks with my friends and I have pictures of that as well. I woke up the next day hurting.  Other than that I’ve been busy advertising memberships for my site as well as a theme week plus working on updates for the site and things to place in my theme week.  I’ve also been doing things for Xanandon. Mainly doing what my job is and that’s live support.  July 4th weekend is a Mandatory off weekend for the Xanandon staff and I’ll be taking that weekend off for my site as well. I’ve been tired a lot and now that I am on my period I am even more tired.  I was advice help for John today and I swear the stuff people were telling him is so damn screwed up.  I hope I helped him. JB called me from Cali yesterday just wanting to see how I am.  Did I mention he moved out there 3 months ago?  Yeah… anyways, I’m tired so I’m gonna go now.  Anybody want to donate some fat to me? I’m down to a disgusting size 5 from a size 10-12. It’s depressing me because one friend says I look almost anorexic and I’ve had to deal with this size when I was 17.  I’m almost 30 and don’t want to look this way. Later!

I guess one can only be lost in thoughts for so long before it becomes and endless boring journey through your head. I still haven’t really understood my thoughts and nor I have really relaxed. I slept but in the life of insomniac it’s never good enough. My thoughts have raced all over the place. Zooming in and out of a grasp. It’s basically the same old stuff but for once I would like to focus in on one at time. I can’t even grasp one right now to elaborate on during my week away. I’m surprised I’m even this far in an entry because all my thoughts are scattered. Instead I’ll write about what I did and hope a particular thought will stay in the forefront of my mind long enough to write about it.

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